A married man with low self-esteem played with my penis

If you've been following my blog, you won't be surprised about the following facts:

  • I don't particularly appreciate getting a blow job

  • I don't like when a guy masturbates or touches my cock

Why is that?

Sometimes, I think it's related to the the fact an older man raped me when I was 17. When I close my eyes at night, I can still feel his stinky mouth and hands all over my body, especially my cock.

I wrote about it here:

Raped @ 17 - Part 1

But I think there's more to it.