2019 is nearly over, and it is a good time for some housekeeping on my blog. I wanted for a long time to sort out the photos that I added to my posts as photo galleries.
I did some of it today. There are currently three galleries:
Naked @ the beach:
https://www.imjudas.com/nudebeachcolor
Naked in my apartment:
https://www.imjudas.com/indoorscolor
Naked @ the beach (b&w):
https://www.imjudas.com/nudebeachmono
You can also access the galleries from the new photos page, reachable from the main menu or the toolbar (see image):
I also wanted to do a video summary for 2019, but I settled for a much shorter version.
2019 was the year in which I learned how to deal with my disability. I am 30% disabled due to neurological damage to the right side of my brain. It happened in November of 2018, and I first noticed it at the nude beach.
Ironic when I think about it. That the place I love the most was where I realized something terrible was happening with my brain.
Sunday at noon, I felt it happening but ignored it.
Sunday, that afternoon at the beach, I realized I could no longer use my camera.
Monday evening, I joked with my friends that I am working too hard, and this is why something is wrong with me.
Tuesday, at 9 PM, my parents convinced me that I should go to the E.R. at once.
That midnight, I had my diagnostic, and my life collapsed into a black hole.
Wednesday, at noon, I was back at the hospital and started my six months of hell. Tests, and more tests, doctors of all kinds and sizes, hurting my body.
And of course, never-ending tears.
This is why I created this short video to summarize the beach season of 2019.
While watching the video I could see the deep sadness in my eyes, and the quiet reflection in my body language of what has happened to me.
But I also saw in my eyes a determination to keep on living and enjoying life. It took a lot of work but eventually, I regained my freedom, my nudity, and my sexuality.
The neurological doctor told me last year I have a 25% chance in the next five years (now four) that the rest of my brain will blow up.
Well, Doctor, I don’t live my life according to statistics.
I live my life according to my plans.
And I plan to live my life not as if tomorrow is my last day, but as if today is my first day, and everything is brand new and exciting.
I dare to live!
-dec2019 -2019
